The Art of Drowning

My mom always tells me that I try to do too much. I’ve heard her say this to me all my life. I hear but I don’t quite listen. If I did listen, then I would not find myself in these pickles as I so often do. I guess I don’t see why I can’t fit in work, a trip to the mall, some time with my Abuela, a visit to the doctor and a home cooked meal into one day. The funny thing is, that I used to make fun of my best friend, Giselle, for always making these out-of-control, can’t-do-it-in-a-week lists. You should see my to-do lists now. Sometimes it’s two pages. Little pages, mind you.

What really grinds my gears is that I thought I would have more time this summer. More time to edit pictures, meet potential clients, create albums, update my website, update my blog, create letterhead and all the other forms that I need, buy packaging, be a full time wife, clean the house, vacation, workout to get a fab body, read…you catch my drift. Don’t get me wrong, I have had more success doing this with the summer off, but sometimes it feels like I’m still in the middle of the school year trying not to drown.

I realize that there is a subtle art to drowning. We all do it. We all take on too much, over commit, try to satisfy all the people in our lives, try to satisfy ourselves. Then suddenly we gain an ounce of self-awareness and see the water rising. We start to lose that self-control. We start to choke.

Some people might say that I’m crazy for writing this on the blog that’s really the storefront for my business. I say, I started this blog as a way to get my thoughts out of my head so they don’t haunt me, so they can just let me sleep. I think it’s important to know all aspects of a person, especially one who you’re going to let into your personal moments, be it a day with the family or your wedding day. So I have no problem saying that I take on too much because I care too much. I want to make my clients happy. I want to make myself happy by succeeding in this business, in all that I do, really. I try to do too much because I want to be able to accomplish it all. Some days I fail miserably and let the water over take me. Other days, well, I remember I know how to tread water.

Love, e